Trust – Lowest of the Lowest

Do you ever had the feeling that you are the lowest of the lowest, not trusted by anyone even as you have tried your best in what so ever that you do. Even the aunties doesn’t trust you. Nobody seems to trust you.

Is it because of my doings? But its really because i didn’t know in the beginning. How people put you down, thinking that you are nothing but a speckle of dust in their eye. Not one but almost all the people around think of it like that. I am no useless, if they know. I am actually alright. I am just a junior, i am still learning. And i am trying my best to learn. Its not about not knowing everything. Its because seniors have to know about things they do, they have to look over everything, hence they know everything. But me? I am a junior who has only being assigned of task here and there and wasn’t sent to oversee the whole thing.

I tried to understand things, but it takes time for me. People think of me like i am just hanging around and doing nonsense. I couldn’t explain everything because certain things are complex for me, i need to learn still. But is it that because i revealed my weakness to people, hence they took it and put me in the lowest of lowest?

But i remember God telling us, my weakness is my strength?

If I must boast, I will boast of the things that show my weakness. 2 Corinthians 11:30.

9But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10.

May my weakness be my strength, may God bless those who put me down, may they be blessed more for they may not understand, because they are not standing in my position. May I hold no anger over them and forgive them though they are putting others down in their surrounding. May i not look down on others too and do the same to others. Let this be a reminder to not put down on others anymore. Though it can be done onto me, but not let others feel the same torture but may they have all blessing.

Count your Blessing

I can’t help thinking about this topic for the moment, though i feel things aren’t going so well in my world.

I guess lots of people would be asking me to count my blessing as God has really given me lots throughout my life. Let me just count how many answered prayers do i have

1. A friend’s sis who has some sickness issue was heal after prayers and prayers. Thank God!..
2. I failed my exams before, but i can say 90% of it passed after prayers? =P
3. I prayed for a job in a description that i wanted and i’ve gotten it.
4. I prayed for a place to stay after i got kick out from one and i have gotten an even better one.
5. I prayed to seek God more and more..and knowing him. I am blessed with a CareGroup that helps me to grow in HIM.
6. I prayed to solve problems that seems too big for me, And God answered with a simple question ask and i shall receive. Ask and you shall receive?

I guess other than prayers, i have found some interesting Gifts God has given to me…hope i can put it into use..
1. Passion to teach
2. A special gift in directions
3. A special gift in arts and crafts
4. A loud voice
5. A gift to be in service to others

Now what can i do with it?

Oh ya, God has also blessed me with a partner. Did he see that i need to learn to love another? I think i was lack to the knowledge to love, i am bad at loving another and now learning. It isn’t easy, though its not that hard, but still learning.

Today, a friend asked me about WHo i worship? I told him about the Holy Trinity and how i worship God as Holy Trinity. I still need to learn on explaining the right thing to people. I have also learn about humble, though we are given lots of gifts, we should still be humble in all ways. As it was said in the bible, our weakness is our strength. Aunty Elaine told me about being humble with the gifts given. I think its pretty true.

I learn another thing, i learn that we shouldn’t think too much of a think we want to do. If it is good, just do it and leave the rest to God. Its like what was mentioned in the sermon earlier this week, we should just take up our arrow and shoot and not make excuses.

Hmp..interesting week. More to come..=)..Count my blessing…