Not being able to be with him was a history. without him around, i started to notice more and more actions by couples which took me by surpise. I dont normally notice this stuff, but it just reminds me of how we were when we are together.

Pretending that we are not couple was the hardest part I faced.  I almost cried when he let go of my hand, i know what was the reason. But i couldn’t take it in not just right at the moment. I tried to hide my tears and hold it back, telling myself to be strong. How could things be like that? I hate pretending, i am never a pretender. I’ll pray that things would be known and we could still hold on.